It’s easy to believe and have faith when things are going the way I want them to. It’s quite a different story when difficult times show up. My first reaction in the face of difficulty is doubt and fear. Yesterday one of those difficult moments popped up. I was haunted all night with this horrible pressure in my chest from the stress. Crazy thoughts were making up the worst case scenarios of what was going to happen to me. Sleep was challenging then I woke up. I could remember what it feels like to believe.

In 1997, I participated in a 1-day workshop called “Healing With Love” with Dr. Leonard Laskow in Seattle, Washington. The workshop was like no other I had ever attended. There was a group of 45 of us. Energy work was still a brand new idea to me, but this life changing workshop gave me access to what might be possible that I never saw before.

A few days after the Seattle workshop, I received an email inviting me to a 5-day workshop with Dr. Laskow at the Esalen Institute in Big Sur, California. I had no idea what the Esalen Institute was and the details of the workshop didn’t really make sense to me, but I didn’t hesitate. I knew I was meant to be there. I started planning my trip. How was this going to happen? The monies weren’t there yet I knew I was meant to be there. For several weeks I hung out in the anticipation of my upcoming trip without making any reservations. Two weeks before the workshop was to begin, I received an unexpected $4000 from a 3-year-old customer account. That was more than enough money to take care of everything I needed for this workshop to happen. I quickly completed everything to be at the workshop. All of the pieces fell into place beautifully! The workshop was one of the most memorable 5 days of my life. I met people from all over the world. I discovered brand new ways of using my energy to help others that I never experienced since.

Doubt and fear never showed up once while planning my California trip. In the past, my automatic way of being would have said “I can’t afford this” and then I would have given up. It was so different in this moment. My intuition was strong. I knew I was meant to be there. When I hear someone say “act as if” I am reminded of my Esalen moment and what I felt. I recreated that same feeling yesterday.

The strength of my believing turns on the highest vibration for whatever I want to manifest. That experience is always in my back pocket. Anytime I wish to manifest anything I just reproduce the same feelings I had when the 5-day workshop came to me and the monies to make it happen.